To be able to travel the world
To get paid for doing something I love
To love and be loved by the same man, my husband, over and over
To be a full time entrepreneur and no longer have to work a 9-5pm (no offense to those who do)
To meet my children
To be debt free (students loans are like a noose)
These are just SOME of the things I have been waiting for
Lately, however, every time I begin to think about the future
Or wonder why certain things haven’t happened yet
Or why I am still waiting
Haven’t I been good enough?
Haven’t I been obedient?
Haven’t I sacrificed enough already?
Haven’t I held out enough?
I hear a small still voice saying,
“Stay in the present. Be here now. With Me.”
It’s a gentle whisper
Yet it jolts me like an electric shock right back in to the present
The gift of today
The gift of this moment
A gift that really hasn’t been given to everyone
Like the woman who got the call that her mother passed away in her sleep last night
Or the father who stands at the hospital bedside of his baby boy taking his last breath on this side of earth
Perhaps the young new wife and mother who had a head on collision while trying to get her oldest child to school in a timely manner
I realize that sometimes looking too much into the future
Dwelling on things we don’t yet have
Frustrating ourselves with the things that we are still waiting to receive
We rob ourselves of this present moment
Of right now
To watch the sunset kissing the earth before us as we are driving home
In a perfect mix of different shades of purples, blues, reds and oranges
To observe the clouds that somehow form various shapes
Or play peekaboo with the sun
The beauty of rainbows
The different colors of the ocean
Against a backdrop of mountains and hills
We miss the beauty of today
Of spending precious moments with your nephews
Teaching them how to float on their backs
Of finally having the privilege to pray over and with the woman who has been covering you in prayer for over 34 years
The truth is
Those things I mentioned above in the beginning may never happen
I have the faith to believe that it will
Yet I have to trust that God’s plan is bigger
And more awesome than I could ever think or imagine
Something I definitely could never have come up with on my own
I think about the things that I should be looking forward to
As He periodically reminds me through visions I see while in worship
Praying in the shower
Or lying in bed at night before falling asleep
I rejoice in the fact that I am traveling home one day
To my real home
I look forward to the day that I meet Jesus face to face
I am thankful for the fact that I have been getting paid to do MANY things I love every day for many years
Just not always with money
I was, am and will ALWAYS be loved by the same MAN over and over, my First Husband
I can rejoice that I have a job where I can make an impact every day while working towards becoming an entrepreneur full time
I am grateful to have met children throughout my years in nursing, working in the hospital, volunteering and being a mentor, who have felt like my own and I have mothered
I do not have credit card debt. (insert praise dance here!)
Instead I choose to dwell on these truths
And take comfort in knowing that everything I have been waiting for
Whether I receive it or not
One thing is true
Eyes have not seen.
Ears have not heard
Neither has it entered into your heart
What God has in store for me AND you!
And you my sister
Can take that to the bank!
- What moments /gifts are you choosing to focus on while you wait?
- Make a list of things that you are waiting for and then beside that list add some truths about what you can be grateful for today.
Feel free to share in the comments!
Photo credit: Pinterest, CJP
Scripture reference: 1 Corinthians 2:9