I deserve.
Have you ever said these two words followed by whatever you have deemed you are supposed to have, but haven’t gotten yet?
It could be a promotion, more money, not having to stand in a long line like everyone else, to be in a relationship, to have been accepted to a school or something else you may be waiting for God to do.
Maybe you didn’t say it out loud, but your actions communicated it.
I have been guilty.
I admit that at times I have placed my confidence more in God’s blessings rather than God Himself. #thankyouMrOswaldChambers
At times I have adopted this way of thinking that because I have been faithful, obedient, held a conviction, taken a stance, given, served, tithed, prayed, fasted, worshipped or whatever other ‘works’ I have chosen to parade around at one time or another have deemed me worthy to say, “I deserve to receive x, y, z“.
As if God owes me something.
He doesn’t because He has already given me His best.
Jesus Christ.
How dare I assume or demand that I deserve to____________ (fill in the blank), whether I ever voice it out loud or not?
I owe Him my whole life.
I don’t deserve to receive anything, but yet He gave me everything when He gave His Son Jesus to the world—to you and to me.
And yet, regardless of my attitude, He still takes and handles, with care, the broken, messy, prideful, unloving, fragile parts of me.
That’s the kind of love we all have access to every day, although we don’t deserve that either.
And every so often I am gently reminded of this:
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