On this journey of waiting, this four letter word is bound to show up and rear it’s ugly head.
Although an uninvited guest, it always wants to come in and take up residence in people.
Honestly, this is one of the words that has ruled me the majority of my life.
Do you know which word I am referring to?
If you guessed fear, you were right.
A few weeks back I talked about the qualifying factor to do what God has called you to do, as you are becoming His best right now while waiting.
We like to blame others, circumstances, upbringing, who hurt us, our lack of education, experience, money, and so many others things for why we aren’t doing what God called us to do.
I am not making light of these things at all.
However, if we are honest, the biggest battle we will have to fight and contend with is often times staring right back at us in the mirror.
In my new book, I talk about what happened one day when I looked in the mirror and how frightening it was.
The other day, as I have had to be brutally honest with myself about some things–(story of my life since moving to Houston, lol)–the Lord made me aware of my biggest battle that I am still fighting.
100% transparency: that battle is still me.
As I continue walking further in and fully into what the Lord is calling me to do, I combat daily with thoughts of inadequacy, fear, lack of confidence, not feeling good enough and comparison among other things.
Dwelling on these things pushes me further into a stagnant space, where I can and have become paralyzed, even though deep down, I know what He has called me to do.
One day, after reading Psalm 20, instead of focusing on those things above, I was reminded of what I do know about God:
- He who called me is faithful. (1 Thessalonians 5:24)
- He will complete what He began in me. (Philippians 1:6)
- He works in me giving me the desire and the power to do what pleases Him. (Philippians. 2:13)
- When I am weak or powerless, His strength can be made perfect in me. (2 Corinthians 12:10)
- His grace is sufficient. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
When I remind myself of what I know about my God, it builds confidence in me to keep going forward, even in spite of me.
Reflection:
What things do you know or can you remind yourself about God to help you fight your biggest battle?
Scripture references: The Holy Bible
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