Ok y’all…I’m about to dive a little deeper and let you take a peek into my current journey and some of things I have been working through personally while waiting. I pray that it will help you along your journey to becoming God’s best right now while waiting as well.
There have been a number of things the Holy Spirit has prompted me to do in this season. One of those things was going to counseling. Having dealt with depression for a number of years in the past, therapy was not new to me. Yet, this time around, I had chosen it, not because I was in crisis or “was crazy”, but as something I felt was necessary for me as a way to be proactive in fostering a healthy soul. Since my move to Houston, the Lord has been slowly uncovering a lot of things that I was not aware had affected me and were driving some of my current thought processes and behaviors, things that went as far back as 30+ years. (And let me just say that while my previous counselor was great, my new therapist is simply amazing! She is a woman of God, who uses scriptures and talks about things from a biblical and Christ-centered perspective and worldview. This has made a world of difference for me this time around.)
Another thing, really an activity, that the Holy Spirit also led me through was as a result of the book I had just finished reading, coupled with the Bible study series I had been going through at my church on forgiveness. This activity, which I called At The Foot Of The Cross™ began during an early morning prayer session where the Lord had me to draw the picture of a cross. As I sat quietly for several minutes, I asked Him to bring to mind anyone who was on my heart that I may not have forgiven, or anyone who I thought I forgave. Since He knows my heart better than mine, I trusted that whoever He brought to mind was important. I wrote each person’s name down on an index card, a total of 7 people, and then left them at the foot of the Cross I had drawn. My name was also included on a card and was at the top of the foot of the Cross.
Let me just say that this was not something I did all at once. I actually had the index cards sitting at the foot of the cross for a couple of weeks before I did anything else with them. Then, when I was prompted again by the Holy Spirit on another morning, I began to pray through each card. The Lord instructed me to:
- Write the offenses (the ways the person had hurt me) whether true or perceived on the back of the card as those offenses came to mind.
- Write the person’s name and say out loud, “I forgive and release person’s name from your debt to me in Jesus’ name, Amen.”
- Pray and ask Him to help me cast all of the offenses I had listed into the sea of forgetfulness, as He had done with my own sins.
- Pray over the person and speak blessings over their life.
- Pray that He would help me to only remember what was necessary from the offenses in order for me to be a better person and not be the offender to someone else because of what I had experienced.
I then ripped up the cards and threw them in the trash. As I ripped them up, I prayed again. I felt such a peace come over me and a heaviness that was in my heart lift. Not coincidentally, this was also the beginning of a brand new month and the month I had declared as my month of joy. (Be sure to check back next week for the free resource on this!)
Yes, what joy for those, whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt, whose lives are lived in complete honesty! When I refused to confess my sin, my body wasted away, and I groaned all day long. Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me. My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat. Finally, I confessed all my sins to you and stopped trying to hide my guilt. I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.” And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone. ~Psalm 32:2-5, NLT
Sis, as you are waiting, may your joy be full and overflowing as you get completely honest with the One who truly can handle it all. He already knows anyway!
Then the Lord God made a woman
Genesis 2:22, NLT
Scripture references: The Holy Bible (NLT)
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